“As you swim,” Anaïs Nin wrote in her soulful meditation on summer time and the artwork of presence, “you might be washed of all of the excrescences of so-called civilization, which incorporates the incapacity to be glad underneath any circumstances.”
This ablution isn’t any small present to our civilization-stifled lives, by which the physique is an afterthought of the thoughts and the ego. However beneath it’s one thing extra primal than mere pleasure — we’re every shaped, in spite of everything, within the moveable ocean of the womb, having begun our collective evolution within the immense womb of Earth’s primordial ocean. As we swim, we’re not a lot forgetting civilization as remembering our elemental nature. It’s hardly shocking that swimming figures into a few of our deepest sensemaking — Kafka drew on it in exploring the character of actuality and Alan Watts wove it into his summation of a fundamental tenet of Taoism.
He begins his magnificent chronicle of understanding the physique and the soul the place all of us have all the time begun: with swimming — one thing he grew up doing together with his father, onetime captain of the West Level swim staff, after which rediscovered half a century later together with his late associate, the irreplaceable Oliver Sacks, a faithful swimmer himself.
Describing the unusual thrill of plunging right into a mountain lake on the peak of autumn, he writes:
There’s violence on this: the physique breaking the glassy floor, crashing by way of it, the blasting noise in a single’s ears — and the sensation on one’s pores and skin, of one’s pores and skin and nerves, all the way down to the bones. It’s a sensation not in contrast to ache.
I suppose it’s ache. I consider icicles breaking. There’s sharpness. I’ve my goggles on and see what I really feel: chaos, a watery chaos, a chaos of sensations. Murky greens and browns and blacks and in addition splashes of white, like slashes of paint, by way of the transparency, by way of the vitreous of the attention of the lake. I see my arms akimbo earlier than me, and bubbles — air bubbles. I really feel like a scuba diver with no gear, and there’s a flash of panic; the water is chilly, fifty levels I’m advised, and I’m virtually confused by it, the not-rightness of it. However in that very same prompt, I’m transferring ahead, pushing by way of the water, onward.
As he particulars the physiology of the expertise, the native poetry of the physique emerges:
I kick exhausting, instinctively feeling that by kicking I’ll get away from the chilly. There’s nothing else to do. Now I see my arms stretched out earlier than me, my fingers in a V, and I’m bulleting by way of the water, acutely aware that I’m transferring — flying — and that the air in my lungs is operating out.
I see the inexperienced transparency lightening, the floor nearing. I attain my proper hand ahead so far as I can and my left arm again, as if pulling the string on a bow, in place to launch into freestyle as quickly as I emerge.
Surfacing is the other of plunging, however it feels the identical, the large chaos of sensations — sensations of temperature, water, drive, gentle. Sure, now there may be gentle as I break by way of and see the shore, the boathouse, bushes, and I seize for air (that’s the way it feels, gasp just isn’t the fitting phrase, it has a bodily, muscular feeling to it), seize a lungful, and thrust, pull, kick, rotate: swim. I am going so far as 4 or 5 breaths will take me, so far as I can go with out pondering of the rest, then flip round. Climbing onto the dock, my pores and skin and muscle tissue are taut, oxygenated.
Later, a buddy asks me why I might do that — it’s October, for God’s sake; the lake is freezing.
“As a result of I can,” I say.